Interlude I – Inversed Solitude


The clinic didn’t call. The street didn’t call. The universe didn’t lean over Draven Endwriting’s shoulder and whisper another emergency into the meat of his morning. For once, the world seemed content to keep its mouth shut.
That alone felt suspicious.
Draven woke up already dressed in the discipline he pretended was just clothing—black tee, dark joggers, the quiet weight of his own thoughts sitting perfectly straight in his skull. He stood in the kitchen and listened to nothing. Not the kind of nothing that meant danger. Just the ordinary kind. A refrigerator hum. A pipe settling. A house existing without begging to be saved.
He poured coffee - Black, like it was a ritual that had to be performed exactly right, or the day would fall apart out of spite.
Then his phone lit up.
Ronan: Rest day. I’m pulling up. Don’t argue.
Draven stared at the message a long moment. His first instinct was to reject the concept entirely. Rest days were lies people told themselves so they could call their exhaustion “balance.” But his second instinct—a rarer one, quieter, harder to identify—was to accept before he found a reason not to.
He typed back one word.
Draven: Bet.
He did not smile. But his shoulders dropped a fraction, as if even his body understood what his face refused to admit: Ronan wasn’t asking permission. Ronan was building a perimeter around him, one day at a time, and calling it friendship.
When the knock came, it wasn’t gentle. It was Ronan’s signature—like he was knocking on the world itself.
Draven opened the door to find his brother standing there with a grocery bag in one hand and a PlayStation controller in the other like both were equally essential to survival. Ronan’s hoodie was the same deep-blue as always, cosmic sigils scattered across it like the universe had tried to claim him and failed. His expression was calm, but that calm was a practiced thing—a surgeon’s calm. The kind that didn’t mean softness. The kind that meant precision.
Ronan held up the bag. “I brought offerings.”
Draven stepped aside. “You brought chaos.”
“I brought snacks.” Ronan walked in like the house belonged to him, because in a way it did. He set the bag on the counter and began unloading it with the focus of a man preparing for war: chips, ramen cups, a pack of mochi, two energy drinks he absolutely didn’t need, and a suspiciously expensive container of fresh fruit like he was trying to pretend he had health standards.
Draven watched him. “You got fruit.”
Ronan didn’t look up. “I’m a complex man.”
“You’re a hypocrite.”
“I’m a survivor.” Ronan finally looked at him, eyes sharp with that familiar mixture of humor and something more protective. “You eat like you’re punishing your body for existing.”
Draven took a sip of coffee. “I eat like I’m busy.”
Ronan pointed at him with the controller. “Today you are not.”
Draven didn’t argue. That was how Ronan knew he’d won.
They moved through the house without urgency. Ronan tossed his spear case into a corner like it was an umbrella—an absurd gesture that somehow felt perfectly normal in their world. Draven took the controllers, checked the console like a man inspecting a weapon, then set everything up in the living room with silent competence.
When the anime queue loaded, Ronan leaned back on the couch and exhaled like he’d been holding his breath for three months.
Draven didn’t sit right away. He stood in front of the TV for a moment, arms crossed, eyes narrowed, as if the screen might try to lie to him.
Ronan nudged him with his foot. “Bro. Sit down. It’s Anime. It’s not a contract.”
Draven lowered himself onto the couch like it was an unfamiliar chair in an interrogation room. “You say that now. Then they hit you with an episode that ruins your whole outlook on reality.”
Ronan grinned. “That’s the point.”
They started with something light. Something loud and ridiculous. A show where the stakes were dramatic but the tone wasn’t asking either of them to bleed. Ronan laughed first—an actual laugh, not a smirk. It caught Draven off guard, the way it always did, because Ronan’s laughter sounded like a door unlocking.
Draven’s reaction was subtler. A faint softening around his eyes. A quiet, almost imperceptible shift in posture. Like his body remembered what it felt like to be a person before he had to become a solution.
Halfway through the first episode, Ronan paused it.
Draven turned his head slowly. “If you paused it to talk about symbolism, I’m going to remove your finger.”
Ronan pointed at the screen. “Nah. Look at how they framed that shot. It’s a classic ‘burden-of-leadership’ angle. The character’s centered, but the negative space above him is doing all the talking.”
Draven stared at the screen, then at Ronan. “You’re analyzing composition.”
Ronan shrugged. “I used to cut into brains for a living, Draven. You think I don’t notice patterns?”
“You did not cut into brains. You operated.”
“That is literally cutting into brains.” Ronan leaned forward, eyes glinting. “Also, don’t pretend you’re not watching for tactical decisions. You’re tracking their footwork.”
Draven’s mouth twitched. Not quite a smile. But the ghost of one. “Their footwork is bad.”
“It’s anime.”
“Even anime needs discipline.”
Ronan laughed again, then unpaused. They watched. They argued about whether a certain character’s logic made sense. Ronan took the generous side, looking for psychological motivation. Draven took the ruthless side, looking for operational realism.
“Why would he rush in without backup?” Draven asked, eyes locked on the screen.
Ronan popped a mochi into his mouth. “Because he’s emotional.”
Draven’s tone didn’t change, but something in his gaze did. “Emotion gets you hurt.”
Ronan swallowed, then looked at Draven with that surgeon’s calm again—gentle but exact. “Emotion also gets you human.”
Draven didn’t respond. Not because he disagreed. Because he didn’t like how true it was.
After two episodes, they switched to Tekken.
Ronan rolled his shoulders like he was preparing for an actual fight. “Okay. No mercy.”
Draven selected his character with the same cold efficiency he applied to everything else. “Mercy is irrelevant.”
Ronan snorted. “That’s my brother.”
The first match lasted thirty seconds. Draven won without speaking. He didn’t celebrate. He didn’t even react. He just set the controller down for a moment and took a sip of coffee like he’d completed a mundane task.
Ronan stared at the defeat screen with offended disbelief. “You’re playing like you’re trying to end a man’s bloodline.”
Draven didn’t look at him. “You said no mercy.”
“I didn’t mean—” Ronan waved a hand. “I meant normal no mercy. Like, respectful violence.”
Draven finally glanced over, eyes flat with humor so dry it almost didn’t register as humor. “That’s not a thing.”
Ronan leaned in, elbows on knees. “Run it back.”
They ran it back. Ronan adapted. That was always Ronan’s gift—adjustment. He didn’t just react, he evolved. He started reading Draven’s habits, baiting his patterns, punishing his certainty.
Draven noticed, of course. Draven always noticed. His face remained unreadable, but his focus sharpened, his hands moving with more intent.
By the fifth match, the living room had transformed into something that wasn’t work but felt adjacent to it: two men locked in a language they didn’t have to speak out loud. Timing. Spacing. Pressure. Patience.
Ronan won one match and erupted like he’d just saved the world. “YES. YES. THAT’S WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT.”
Draven blinked once. “You’re loud.”
“I’m victorious.” Ronan pointed at him. “You see? You can be beat.”
Draven leaned back. “Only because you got lucky.”
Ronan’s smile turned sharp. “Luck is just probability admitting I’m right.”
Draven’s eyes narrowed. “Don’t start.”
Ronan leaned back too, satisfied. “Say it.”
Draven stared at the screen as if the pixels might grant him an escape route. “Say what.”
Ronan’s tone was playful, but underneath it was something else—something brotherly and absolute. “Say I’m the best.”
Draven exhaled through his nose. “You’re… not terrible.”
Ronan slapped the couch like he’d just been given a medal. “I’LL TAKE IT.”
They played until the snacks were half gone and the energy in the room felt warm in a way neither of them would ever describe as “warm.” They’d call it something else. Calm. Quiet. Neutral. Anything but what it was.
At some point, Ronan got up and wandered into the kitchen like he was checking the perimeter of Draven’s life. He returned with two bowls of ramen, prepared with absurd care—egg cracked perfectly, seasoning measured, a sprinkle of something extra like he couldn’t help himself.
He handed one to Draven. “Eat.”
Draven took it. “You cooked.”
“I assembled.” Ronan sat back down. “There’s a difference.”
Draven tasted it. His expression didn’t change, but he took a second bite immediately, which was the closest thing he offered to praise.
Ronan noticed anyway. He always did.
They ate in silence for a stretch, the anime playing in the background now like ambient light instead of a focal point. Then Ronan spoke, not looking at Draven, as if he didn’t want to trigger the reflex that made Draven turn every conversation into a battlefield.
“You ever think about the war on crime?” Ronan asked casually, like he was asking about the weather.
Draven’s eyes stayed on the screen. “No.”
Ronan hummed. “Liar.”
Draven didn’t deny it. That was also an answer.
Ronan continued, voice steady. “People say ‘war on crime’ like crime is a thing you can bomb. Like it’s an enemy army you can defeat. But it’s not. It’s a symptom. It’s poverty. It’s trauma. It’s people learning that the world only listens when you break something.”
Draven’s jaw tightened slightly. He didn’t look away from the TV, but his attention was no longer on the episode. “Sometimes it’s also just evil.”
Ronan nodded once. “Yeah. Sometimes it is.” He took a bite of ramen. “But most times? It’s desperation. It’s neglect. It’s someone being raised in a house where love was a rumor.”
Draven didn’t respond right away. The silence between them wasn’t awkward. It was honest.
Finally, Draven said, “The war on crime is a slogan. It makes people feel like they’re doing something without changing anything.”
Ronan glanced at him. “That’s what I’m saying.”
Draven continued, tone even. “You can’t arrest your way into a functional society. You can’t punish pain until it becomes peace.”
Ronan’s expression softened, but he kept it subtle. “Look at you, sounding like a policy analyst.”
Draven’s eyes flicked over. “Don’t get excited.”
Ronan smiled anyway. “You know what the real war is?”
Draven waited.
Ronan’s voice lowered. “The war on apathy.”
That landed.
Draven stared at the screen, but his gaze had gone far past it. He thought about the people who only cared when tragedy was trending. The institutions that only moved when cameras showed up. The way suffering could be loud and still be ignored.
He didn’t say any of that out loud. He didn’t need to. Ronan already knew.
Ronan continued, gentle but relentless. “And I know you hate when I say this, but you can’t fight that war alone.”
Draven’s shoulders shifted, almost defensive. “I’m not alone.”
Ronan’s eyes stayed on him. “You’re not allowed to be.”
Draven held his gaze for a moment. Then he looked away, as if eye contact might reveal something he didn’t want revealed.
Ronan let it go. Because rest days weren’t for forcing open sealed doors. They were for sitting outside the door and reminding the person inside that someone was still there.
A few minutes later, Ronan changed the subject with the casualness of a man deliberately steering away from cliffs.
“So.” Ronan grabbed the controller again. “Romance.”
Draven didn’t move. “What about it.”
Ronan smirked. “Don’t play dumb. I’ve seen you.” He leaned forward. “You act like you’re made of steel, but you’re not. You got… feelings.”
Draven’s eyes narrowed slightly, warning. “Donan.”
Ronan laughed. “That’s not my name.”
“It is now.”
Ronan waved him off. “I’m serious. You got all this discipline, all this control, but when it comes to romance, you act like it’s a tactical risk assessment.”
Draven’s response was instant. “Because it is.”
Ronan pointed at him like a prosecutor. “SEE?”
Draven didn’t flinch. “Love makes you vulnerable.”
Ronan nodded. “Yeah. That’s the point.”
Draven’s voice stayed calm, but there was something old in it—something tired. “Vulnerability gets used.”
Ronan’s expression shifted, the humor dimming without disappearing completely. “Sometimes.”
Draven stared at the anime like it might distract him from whatever was trying to rise in his chest. “Most times.”
Ronan didn’t argue. He didn’t dismiss it. He didn’t say the kind of optimistic nonsense that sounded like a lie in the mouth of a man who’d seen what they’d seen.
Instead, he said, “And sometimes… it heals.”
Draven’s fingers tightened slightly around his bowl. He didn’t speak.
Ronan leaned back. “I’m not telling you to be naïve. I’m telling you to be alive.”
Draven’s eyes flicked toward him again. “You’re trying to psychoanalyze me.”
Ronan smiled faintly. “I’m your brother. That’s my job.”
Draven huffed a breath through his nose. “Your job is to lose at Tekken.”
Ronan’s smile widened. “Oh, we’re back to violence? Good.”
They played again, but slower now, less hungry for domination. It became a rhythm instead of a contest. The kind of thing that let your body relax without your mind panicking about what relaxation might cost.
Later, when the anime reached a moment that should’ve been corny—two characters promising each other they’d keep going no matter what—Ronan didn’t mock it. He just watched.
Draven watched too. His face was unreadable, but his eyes were quiet.
Ronan spoke softly, almost like he didn’t want to startle the moment. “You ever think about how rare it is? Just… someone staying.”
Draven’s answer came after a long pause. “No.”
Ronan didn’t push. He just nodded. “You should.”
Draven didn’t look at him. “Why.”
Ronan’s voice was simple. “Because I’m here.”
That hit harder than any dramatic speech. Harder than any philosophy. Because it was real. It wasn’t a promise made in a story. It was a fact made in a living room, over ramen and controllers and the quiet hum of a television.
Draven’s throat moved slightly, like he swallowed something that wasn’t food.
He kept his voice steady. “I know.”
Ronan’s grin returned, quick and bright, like he refused to let tenderness sit too long without turning it into something safer. “Good. Now pick your character.”
Draven picked.
Ronan picked.
They fought in pixels. They laughed at ridiculous combos. They argued about whether a move was cheap. They shouted at the screen like it could hear them. Ronan celebrated like a child when he won. Draven pretended not to care when he lost, even though his eyes narrowed like he was memorizing the exact mistake.
At some point, Ronan stood up and stretched, arms overhead. “You know what’s crazy?”
Draven didn’t look away from the screen. “You.”
Ronan laughed. “That too. But nah. I mean… look at us.”
Draven finally glanced up. “What about us.”
Ronan gestured at the room. The snacks. The controllers. The anime still playing. The normality sitting on their shoulders like it belonged there. “We’re doing normal stuff.”
Draven’s gaze sharpened with skepticism. “This is normal?”
Ronan shrugged. “As close as we get.”
Draven stared at the TV again, jaw working subtly, as if he was chewing on an idea he didn’t like because it was necessary.
Ronan’s voice softened. “Bro… you deserve days like this.”
Draven’s answer was immediate, reflexive. “Nobody deserves anything.”
Ronan looked at him for a long moment, then nodded slowly. “Okay. Fine.” He sat back down. “Then let me say it differently.”
Draven waited.
Ronan’s voice was quiet, but it carried the weight of everything he didn’t say. “You need days like this. Or you’re going to forget what you’re fighting for.”
Draven didn’t respond right away. His eyes stayed on the screen, but his focus wasn’t on the animation anymore. It was inward. Deep. Somewhere he rarely let himself go.
Finally, he spoke—low, controlled, almost reluctant. “I don’t forget.”
Ronan nodded. “You don’t forget. You just… bury it under duty.”
Draven’s fingers flexed once, like his hands wanted something to do. “Duty keeps the world from falling apart.”
Ronan’s expression didn’t change, but his tone was firm. “Duty also breaks men.”
Draven looked at him then. Really looked. Cold eyes, but not empty. Focused, but not cruel. The gaze of someone who’d carried too much for too long and convinced himself that was the only way to carry anything.
Ronan met that gaze without flinching. Best friends for life wasn’t a slogan to them. It was a survival pact.
Draven spoke quietly. “You’re still here.”
Ronan smiled faintly. “Yeah.”
Draven’s voice stayed flat, but it was softer underneath. “You always come back.”
Ronan shrugged like it was obvious. “Somebody has to.”
The anime kept playing. The characters on screen kept pretending the world was simple enough to explain in one speech.
Draven and Ronan sat in the real world, where love didn’t always look like poetry. Sometimes it looked like showing up with snacks. Sometimes it looked like forcing a rest day into existence. Sometimes it looked like letting a man be quiet without mistaking his silence for rejection.
Draven leaned back into the couch, letting the cushion hold some of the weight for once.
Ronan nudged him with his elbow. “You good?”
Draven didn’t answer immediately. Then, with the same restraint he used to handle everything that mattered, he gave Ronan the closest thing to vulnerability he’d offer without a fight.
“Yeah,” he said. “I’m good.”
Ronan’s grin returned, bright and easy. “Good. Because we got one more set.”
Draven picked up the controller.
Ronan picked up his.
And for the rest of the render, they stayed exactly where they were—two brothers, two best friends, letting the world exist without them for a few precious hours, and finding, in that quiet, a kind of peace that didn’t need to be earned through suffering.